My oldest son ships out to Air Force boot camp (San Antonio) on March 17th. I will gradually build into a blithering idiot the closer that date nears (giving you guys fair warning). My insides are torn in the great conflict of being so proud of him and being utterly terrified of the thought of him in the military right now. He needs some direction and does well with having a goal and rules and sticking to them. He does NOT do well on his own, he just flounders and wants to play and not work and smoke weed all the time. It is a good move for him and he's very excited about it.
My youngest son informs me last night he is moving to Florida later this year with his father, whose job is (potentially) sending him there. It may not happen. But this just about knocked the wind outta dear old mom. He's my BABY, after all. We've always been very close. I'm close to both of my boys, but my older son is very headstrong and sometimes defiant and we butt heads occasionally. My youngest is very much like me, laid back, mellow.... and we've always been just really close. He has a girlfriend of about 2 years that I'd like to get him away from, though. She's the consummate femme fatale. He's madly in love with her and she has been clear with him that she stays with him for the sex. Nice girl, eh? They've broken up a time or two and she asked him if they could just be fuck buddies. I read the text where she asked him that (told you we're close). I found out she steals liquor from the liquor store, just your normal white trash that moms hate. haha..... she's drop dead gorgeous and he thinks he's in love. He actually told me one of the reasons he's wanting to move to Fla. is to get completely away from her. I do NOT want her to get pregnant and my son be tied to her forever. Not to mention I'm not ready to be a grandmother (*gasp!*) yet....
Anyway, I'm writing way more than I intended.... but my impending empty nest is what occupies my mind 24/7 nowadays.
Oh, and.......p.s........... RIP Bart.